Long day’s journey into night: Masters

A road map for my classroom…ideas for my inquiry?? Retrieved from https://twitter.com/NicolRHoward/status/597541062001831939?s=03 on May 12, 2015

Tuesdays are hard.

I wake up with a knot in my stomach knowing that today will be a long one. I go through my normal routine, feed the dog make lunch, try and relax for five minutes watching Brian Baumler.

Then it’s off to work for a full day of teaching which I love because it gets my mind off the rest of the day. After work, there’s a meeting. If it’s not a meeting, it’s preparing for a presentation, or planning a field trip, or marking.

Then I drive for 50 minutes to the mountain. The mountain is where I first started my post-secondary journey nearly forty years ago, taking classes in dance and psychology. It’s where I graduated with a BSc in 1999 as a single  working mother with a 10 year old daughter and where I completed my post-graduate diploma in education.

It’s where I will be going on Tuesday nights and summer days to continue working on my practice. Where I will join a new community of thinkers, all who share a common passion for teaching.

When I read and write and reflect,I know that I am doing the right thing, that I am where I should be. I know that the struggle, the anxiety and the stirring in my gut is letting me know that nothing worth doing is easy (or that I need to cut down to one cup of coffee in the morning:).

But man I wish I could make it easier on myself. It’s my internal reaction to external factors that concerns me. I’m prepared, I do what’s required, I get engaged and excited. So where does the terror come from?


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